i got the birthday blues
drinkin a 40 by myself pretending its gray goose
my real friends can see thru the fake smile
i just wanna feel fine i know it’ll take a while
i used to piss on my emotions in public
made fun of em, but always wondering what if
finally opened up and now i’m here
can’t believe it took me 25 years
i’m hungry but i can’t eat, tired but i can’t sleep
i have all these nightmares but i can’t dream
it’s hard to look on the bright side
when before i could always see it in your light eyes
yeah maybe the pain is good for my art
but is the worth the toll that it takes on my heart
i knew i was always afraid to feel shit
i finally cracked i just couldn’t conceal it
HOOK
i wish i didn’t let it out
because i’m sure we woulda been fine
now i just sit in my room and pout
cause people aren’t allowed to cry outside
we lied to ourselves and said that we didn’t care
i wonder why we couldn’t see what was clearly there
oh yeah we were scared
of this exact feeling that we share
now i’m stuck somewhere that i can’t be
panic attacks, got me diggin through my pantry
afraid to see a shrink, ashamed of what’d he think
of me i’m a mess he’d only offer me a drink
i’m emotional and i’m embarrassed of it
me and my friends hate it but my parents love it
paranoid i’m scared in public
i’m weaker than i’m ever been
i know she needs me to be a better man
but i just don’t think i can right now
i wish i didn’t give a damn right now
now understands how i am right now
HOOK
i wish i didn’t let it out
because i’m sure we woulda been fine
now i just sit in my room and pout
cause people aren’t allowed to cry outside
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