so many people i get lonely in the city
dippin my cannoli in my whiskey
i wish i could show these words to my grand dad
but the fact that i can’t makes me happy and sad
why am i different i still i don’t understand that
lead me to ocean please show me where the sands at
in the winter, take me where it’s warm
in the summer, take a chance and dance in a thunderstorm
the grass is greener by a red head
i drink so much sometimes i wake up in a wet bed
not proud of what i’ve done drunk but it’s over
at least in the morning i sit and think about it sober
my friend called me a freak, that’s a compliment
aside from bein me that’s my biggest accomplishment
yeah i’m proud of myself,
but i’m also a hazard i shouldn’t be allowed by myself
TODAY I COULDN’T FIND MY BALANCE
FEELING FINE WAS SUCH A CHALLENGE
BUT I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS
YEAH I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS
i can’t smoke weed, but i wish i could
all these cigarettes ain’t doin me good
i threw my to-do list in a bucket, said fuck it
i don’t talk about my future it’s a touchy subject!
we shouldn’t go there,
that conversation always ends up no where
i fear that man in the mirror,
alienated myself from society but i can’t abandon a beer?
rap is killing me but i feel the need to do it more
and discover shit about myself most people ignore
they don’t give a damn, it’s a scam
but artists are assholes so i understand
everything was easy, you were gentle
but our love was a summer sublet, just a rental
it was so eventful
that i still try to relive it with my pencil
TODAY I COULDN’T FIND MY BALANCE
FEELING FINE WAS SUCH A CHALLENGE
BUT I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS
YEAH I KNOW THAT LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS